  
its so over with him. not that it ever even started. its gone downhill form the first few days i started talking to him. when it felt so good. then with everyday he got less attached while i got more. i lost the sweet talking adam when i lost another part of myself. the only question everyone asks is "was he worth it". i suppose he was. it just sucks so bad right now for me to think about it. its weird how everything changes in a year. friends change. love changes. poeple change. i miss hanging out with ryan. we were supposed to hang out but he ditched me for his gf. hmm how ironic. isn't it funny how i always pick the players who only want to be there till sunrise. i must have a magnet or something. 
i'm going to miss him. but i don't want to. i hate this. went to a party last night. for once i didn't do something i regret.   
mixed a pretty cool drink last night. i made it. its called Get Lo: - fill half of the glass with bacardi 151
- fill next part to 3/4s of cup with orange juice
- fill to top with champagne.
- add ice
i love this girl  
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